Talking in Parenthesis

Ramblings and angst from a mostly stay at home mom

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us. It is in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. -Nelson Mandela

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Floating

Maybe it is because I have worked all week and my schedule is all wonky or maybe it is something else but things just feel disconnected today. Like I am floating. Can't quite get centered or my feet on the ground. Right now I have the head phones on, Macy Gray loud enough that my Mom would have a heart attack (Your hearing, think of your hearing). I would like to get rid of this before I go to bed because I know I won't sleep. My mind wanders from topic to topic, often several at a time. I have a very strange mind, that is sort of like a computer with multiple browser windows open. Somedays it is easier to focus on one thing than others. Today is not a good focus day (switch music to Depeche Mode) and I don't know why. Having a brain that multitasks thought is a pretty cool thing except when you want to sleep. I basically have to be so tired I drop or my mind keeps racing. Nothing earth shattering, not even really worries, like money etc.. Odd things, like recipes I would like to try, books I have read, movies, conversations etc. One thing that does help is talk radio when I sleep. Not music, that makes my brain work harder I guess. Talk radio gives my brain something to focus on. My current favorite is George Noory. He took over for Art Bell, I like all the paranormal stuff. (switch music to OMD) I might give my book some attention too, I have taken such a long time reading this book, unusual for me, hmmm.

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