Talking in Parenthesis

Ramblings and angst from a mostly stay at home mom

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us. It is in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. -Nelson Mandela

Monday, October 03, 2005

The death of nice

I sat down to write about how nobody was nice to each other anymore, but for some reason it doesn't seem t be coming together. I know there is something, just simmering below the surface that needs to come out but I don't know what it is. And I don't know how to articulate the feeling. There is so much I want to write and need to write. Maybe that is the problem, volume, there is too much trying to get out. My brain, as usual, is on overdrive. I would love to have somebody to just spill everything to. But usually when I let just the smallest part out I scare people away. The last friend that I thought I had did that. When I needed a friend just to listen, not to fix things, just listen, she couldn't do it. It made her uncomfortable, I make her uncomfortable. It became clear to me that she was friends with me for reasons other than pure friendship. It think it was mostly out of guilt. And the fact that she didn't answer me when I raised that subject proved it to me. Oh well. I guess friends, close friends, like that might never be in my future. I will focus on my family and myself. There is a lot I would like to do with my life and I will focus on that.

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